LAST EDITED ON May-25-03 AT 01:27 PM (CMT)Wow, there are so many of us out there......... This is my first attempt at "on-line support" so, please, bear with me.
I began getting migraines at age 30. I'd had bad headaches all my life, but these were different - I'd wake at 4 or 5 AM feeling as if a nail had been driven through one eye, and would have pain for a day or two.
A few years later (after getting health insurance) I had a check-up that included a CAT scan, and was given Vicoden. What a miracle!!! One or two tablets and NO PAIN!!!
Ten tabs would last 3-4 months, & problem solved. I had my life back for the next two years. Then I moved from Hawaii to New Jersey, and within a year I was having daily headaches which sparked more migraines.
That began four years of trying every specialist & drug you can think of. Nothing seemed to work. I had no relief of either headache (sinus?) or migraine pain, although I was using 30 Extra Strength Vicodins each month, along with 6-10 Excedrin per day, and decongestants as needed.
Countless MRI's, CAT Scans, medication protocols, & specialists brought me nothing but "a pat on the head" & a suggestion that I see a psychiatrist. I tried that too, but gave up after more useless medications that had HORRIBLE side-effects.
That was it - I lost faith in Doctors (a very famous migraine specialist ignored the calendar I provided that showed my migraines were DEFINITELY related to my period, and, instead, gave me an anti-seizure medication that was NO HELP.
I later read in TIME magazine of a study he presented showing the benefit of these medications in migraines. It was wonderful to know that, although I recieved NO REAL TREATMENT FROM HIM, I was able to help his study..........)
I eventually asked an OBGYN to put me on birth control pills constantly (the theory being "no period no fluctuation in Estrogen levels = no migraine") and it worked - another miracle!!! For two years I had NO 4 AM migraines!!!!
I continued to have chronic daily headaches (New Jersey is notorious for sinus problems/headaches) & they occasionally sparked a daytime migraine, but it was do-able.
I learned about rebound, started alternating & cutting-back pain meds, and actually started to feel optomistic again . I bought a kayak, did a stint on anti-depressants, & thought I had it licked.
That's when I began noticing pain in my joints, along with some pretty debilitating fatigue. I was tested for Lyme disease & Lead (heavy metals)poisoning for the joint pain. I had a complete cardiac work-up & a sleep test, etc.. for the fatigue.
Everything checked-out OK & I really started feeling like a "head case". That's when my sister (who also has migraines)told me about Fibromyalgia.
I found a "specialist" through The Fibromyalgia Network who diagnosed me, then said there was nothing he could do for me since noone knows the cause or cure for the syndrome.
Back to feeling disgusted with doctors, I began reading again & for the last two years I've tried every vitamin, herb, treatment regimin, diet, etc.. that I've read about.
I also switched from taking a birth control pill every day, to taking estrogen every day because I read that synthetic progestrin can inhibit estrogen's natural pain-reduction properties. Now I'm back to having regular migraines, along with constant joint/muscle pain & fatigue.
I'm only able to work 6-7 hours per day so money is a problem (I've literally spent thousands on Doctors/medications over the years & have a MASSIVE credit debt). Stress is a constant & I seem to need a good cry on a weekly basis.
I found this webpage tonight because I've been a complete basket-case for the last three days: I've had a migraine EVERY AFTERNOON & evening for two weeks now, and my joint pain & fatigue have been overwhelming for the last three days (more missed work....).
I've never had migraines this many days in a row before, and my pain/fatigue has never stayed at this debilitating level for this long, so I decided to cut back on medication this weekend (in case meds overuse is causing a problem) and just stay in bed if necessary
(I currently take 100mg Ultram 3x day, 600mg Aleve 2x day, 800mg Skelaxin 2x per day, & 5mg Xanax each night for sleep). I've stopped using Excedrin completely due to rebound, and have relied exclusively on Imitrix (usually 100mm - 150 mg) for migraine.
I made it through yesterday with just 100mg of Ultram and 100mg of Imitrix. I made it drug free today until around 8PM when it felt like my migraine might get out of control & send me to the E.R. again (that's so much fun....).
Ice packs & neck stretches weren't working so I took 100mg Imitrix. It suddenly occured to me that the Imitrix might be inducing rebound migraines, even though I'd never read or heard anything to that effect. I went straight to the computer, searched, and there it was.
It seems to be a well known fact that daily use can induce rebound migraines. That's all it took - I sat on the bathroom floor & started bawling. In the midst of it all, it occured to me that I'd just taken the dose that would have me in the same position tomorrow night.
I was so mad that I decided to induce vomiting so I could break the cycle starting tonight. It was incredibly disgusting, but it served the purpose. I ate some yogurt & toast, then took two ultram and am currently gutting-it-out.I doubt I'll sleep tonight & I'm afraid I'll end-up in the E.R. again, but I don't know what else to do. I'm just so tired.........
Every single day is a bargaining game: "how bad should I let this get before I take something"; "I took something an hour ago for the migraine, but it doesn't help the joint pain- can I mix drugs?, "when was the last time I missed work - can I get away with taking today off too?"; It's a constant strategy meeting in my head........
Meanwhile, I find myself being mean to my loved ones, and I have no life beyond work & the couch because I'm just too tired & hurt too bad all the time .
I alternate between trying new treatments/therapies because I want to feel better, to deciding to just "cope" because it all seems so hopeless. Most days lately I just force myself to get up & go through the motions - bills have to be paid!!!
Sometimes I wish I could just fall asleep & never wake up...... I'm not going to "off" myself, but it feels good to be able to say that out-loud.
In fact, it's felt great to get all of this out. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR PROVIDING THIS FORUM! I'd appreciate hearing from ANYONE with similar circumstances, or even anyone who wants to talk about this situation we all find ourselves in.
Thanks for listening,
Carole